Home for Christmas

I remember this time last year.  I had one thing on my mind for Christmas...bringing my little girl home.  At that point, I had no idea what she even looked like.  Now, I can not imagine my life with out her.  She brings so much joy to all of us.  She is spunky, funny, sassy, full of energy, always smiling, and our best Christmas gift that we could have this year.  I so love this little girl.  Her brothers adore her, and she adores them.  Yesterday, when her daddy came home, she ran to him and hugged him.  That melts my heart!  I feel so blessed for the family and the life that God has given me.

Merry Christmas!!! 

Hayley and Anthony

Exactly two months ago was our "gotcha" day!  Today we took the kids to a skate park in Sellersville.  While the boys were skateboarding, I was watching Hayley ride her little bike with training wheels.  I couldn't help but think about the last two months, and all the things that have changed in her life.  She has been able to experience so many new things.  She looked so happy and carefree...the way it should be for a two year old little girl. 

So in one of my previous posts I mentioned a little boy that lived in the same orphanage where Hayley lived.  Take a look at these pictures.  The first one is the two of them in the orphanage.  The second one is in China when we met for the first time, and found out that Hayley and Anthony came from the same place.  And the third picture is from tonight, when our families met for dinner.  Can you believe it?!?!  There are millions of orphan children in China, and our children went from Xianyang, Shaanxi, China to living 30 minutes apart in Pennsylvania.  A huge blessing from God that these two children can grow up knowing each other.  

Today was a good day.  For me, a day of reflecting, and a day for me to just say "thank you God for this precious little person that you have brought into our lives"! 

Little Feet in the Grass...

I love trying to see the world through my daughter's eyes.  There are so many things that we take for granted that she has never had the chance to experience.  One example...grass!  The first time she saw it, she looked down and decided that there was no way she was going to step on that strange looking stuff.  Then, we showed her that it was perfectly safe to walk in, and she was certainly not convinced.  It took a little time to show her that it was fine, and now she loves to run through it.  The other day, I decided to take her shoes off and REALLY let her feel the grass.  This was her reaction...

Then she couldn't help herself. :)

Imagine never experiencing grass!  It made me think of all of the children that are there until they are 5...8...10...12 years old and they have never felt grass!!!  The things we take for granted!  God thank you for grass, trees, flowers, and all the beautiful things you bless us with each day. 

Life as a family of five...

We have now been home for just over 2 weeks.  It has been difficult, but amazing.  It is amazing to see how far this scared little girl has come over the last month.  I feel so blessed when I look at her smiling and watch her playing with her brothers.  She deserves a life full of love and happiness.   God has truly blessed us with an adorable, happy little girl. Hayley has her moments of struggle, as I am sure she will over the next few months or even years that she is home.  God will get her and us through them...I know!

Our trip overall went very well.  The jet lag was pretty rough in the beginning.  Especially when Hayley decided to wake up between 3-4am the first 4-5 days that we were home. :-)  But now I cannot complain, she is sleeping great!  She sleeps all night, and takes a nap too!  I can deal with almost anything when I have had a good night sleep.

Aidan and Cameron love her to pieces, and they both have been so great with her.  They are patient with her, and are constantly showing her love.  She is a bucket of endless energy, and fortunately Cameron is the same way!  I think he is the only one that can really keep up with her!  Hayley is also starting to do really well with her daddy too.  He came home today, and she ran over to give him a hug and kiss, and they played outside for a while tonight.  It has also given me a welcomed break here and there. 

Tomorrow we have Hayley's appointments at CHOP.  It will be a long day for her.  We have three different appointments scheduled...all in one day.  Poor thing...that is the last thing she needs, but we figured it was better all in one day.  If not, we would have had to go down to the city three different times. 

We are all adjusting to life, as a family of five.  And we are all in love with this new little member of the family.  I now cannot imagine my life without her.  She has the cutest smile, and she always makes me laugh.  She loves to give me kisses, and loves to snuggle after her naps.  She loves to get her books and sit on my lap.  She loves to sing 5 little monkeys...over and over.  Yes, I love her.   When I look at her and think of her being back in the orphange that she came from, I feel so thankful that God chose me to be her mom.  It gives me strength to keep going, if we are having a tough day.  It makes my heart break for the other children that are still there...

God thank you for my little girl.

We are home!

We are so beyond happy to be home, and it was so nice to be greeted by our family and friends at the airport and at home.  Hayley handled it all pretty well considering.  When we arrived in the U.S., it was the middle of the night in China.  She was so tired, but managed to give everyone a smile. 

Now we are trying to overcome the jet-lag, and the little one sitting next to me decided to wake up at 3am.  So here I sit (at 5:30am), and she does not look at all like she wants to go back to sleep!  This should be interesting. 

After being home for about an hour, Hayley decided to get down and play with her brothers for a while last night.  They were thrilled, and they were able to see a little bit of her fun personality.  They are so excited to have her home! 

Thank you again for all of your prayers and support!  I will still try to update periodically to let you all know how Miss Hayley is doing!

Last post from China!

So today will be my last post from China!  Tomorrow night (tomorrow morning for all of you) we head to Hong Kong, and we are there for one night.  Then, we fly home!  Fifteen hours in the air from Hong Kong to Newark.  Sounds fun...right?!?! Hmmm.

Saying that we cannot wait to come home would be an understatement!  We were ready the day we got Hayley, but we made it through the last 2 weeks. We feel so blessed to have this adorable, spunky, funny, little girl.  She has come a long way in a short time.  

I can't wait for you all to meet this little one.  I was reading my Bible the other day, and came across a verse that is very familiar to me.  It is probably very familiar to many of you too.  "He who began a good work in you, will be faithful to complete it."  That verse hit me in a whole new way, as I was sitting there reading next to my sleeping beauty.  He began a good work in this little precious one's life, and I feel so blessed to have the opportunity to be part of how He chooses to complete it.

See you all soon!

Time at the pool!

In Guangzhou

We arrived in Guangzhou late last night, and we are so happy to be here.  Xian was a rough place to be.  We have been able to see all of the other families that we started with in Beijing, but now they each have their children.  It is such a blessing to see them all with these precious children, and also be with people that are going through some of the same struggles. 

The hotel is absolutely beautiful, and the area is much nicer than the previous two cities.  This morning we had Hayley's visa photo taken and medical check (that was fun).  And we were able to get some shopping in on the Island...so much fun!  Hayley strutted her stuff, as we walked from store to store.  She is definitely full of spunk, and a bit sassy. :-) She is really doing better day by day.  She keeps us laughing, and thinks that she is hysterical.  Hayley still only lets me hold her, and fortunately is a tiny little thing.  She is only 23lbs!  I have had to stitch some of her 24 month size clothes, so they don't fall off.  She is starting to respond to Nate more and more.  She laughs at his funny faces, and on occasion will let him hold her hand.  And they run through the halls together which is one of her favorite times of the day.  So overall that is improving too.  I am praying that before we leave here, she lets him hold her!  He is a good dad, and can't wait to hold his little girl!

I was talking to a friend that has been a wonderful support for me this week, and she said it perfectly...it is like all of the sudden you start to see this light in them.   That is what we are starting to see...Hayley's little light shine through.  I can't wait to see more and more of this little personality!  Nightime and naptime are the hardest times...that is when all the kicking and screaming comes out.  But I am sure that is when most of her fear and anxiety comes out, as for all of us.  It always seems better in the morning. I cannot even begin to imagine all the emotions and anxiety that she is going through.  But I know that God will give us what we need to help her cope. 

Overall, things are going better day by day.  I am so ready to come home.  I miss Aidan and Cameron so much, and cannot wait to squeeze them!  I will post more pics over the next day or so!

A Better Day!

Thank you all for your prayers...we could feel them!  Today has been better.  She actually played with Nate in the car for a while today.  They were handing things back and forth, and each time he would say "Thank you".  She then started saying "thank you" (or something that sounded sort of like that) back, when he would hand her something.  It is amazing how something so simple could be so precious.  She is starting to babble a lot more, which is so cute.  We are also starting to see little bits of her personality come out.  I think that she is going to keep us laughing.  She has this strut when she walks that is hysterical.  We will try to post it later, if it will work.  Again, thank you all for your prayers! Here are some pictures to enjoy! 

She loves her headbands!

She does not like to take her shoes off...ever!  I dressed her for bed, and she insisted on wearing them. :-)

I love this one!

Where to begin....

The last couple days there has been a lot of ups and downs.  Yesterday was very hard.  Poor baby is going through so much!  She is terrified, and trying to grieve the loss of life, as she know it. Even though her life now will be better than the "life" she would have here, that "life" is all she has ever known.  I had a breaking point yesterday...completely broke down while I was holding her.  This poor little baby is angry, frustrated, and most of all completely terrified.  My heart is broken for her, and for the years that she did not have a mama to love her.  God is giving me the grace to keep on, and I am so very thankful for a supportive husband.  Right now she refuses to go to him, and only will be with me.  He is handling that very well, and is great about helping me with what I need. 

Today, so far, has been much better than yesterday.  She is wanting to play more, and responded to Nate a couple times.  She loves her headbands that her grandmom made for her, and decided to put them on today by herself.  Then walked around with a new purse that her daddy gave her.  That has been one of the highlights of the day.

I can not wait to leave Xian and head to Guangzhou, where all the other families are!  I think it will help to have some other people to talk too, and some children for Hayley to play with. Yesterday, we met a family from Doylestown that actually adopted a little boy from Hayley's orphanage!!!  Then, when we came back to the hotel, I looked in the photo album that was given to us from her caretaker, and found his picture with her!  I love that we have two little ones from Xian to 20 minutes apart in the U.S.  A gift from God!

Praying that each day gets a little easier, although I know that there will be many ups and downs. I love her so much, and can't wait to see her happy and running around with her big brothers.  Oh I miss them terribly!  I will post pictures soon...the pictures take such a long time to upload.  I had hoped to post video but at this point the connection is not fast enough to do that.   Hopefully in Guangzhou!  Thank you all for your prayers and support! 

Pictures!!!

We have our girl!

We picked up Hayley (right now we are calling her Yi Qing) less than 24 hours ago at the Civil Affairs office in Xian.  She scream, kicked, and punched us while we were there, and by the time we got to the car, I think she just gave up.  Poor baby - it was so difficult on her, and on her Nanny that appeared to be very attatched to her.  Once we came back to the hotel, we were able to get her to smile and even got some kisses!  She is a sweatheart. 

We found out that she was actually placed in an orphanage through Hope Haven, which is a mission-focused, Christian organization.  They took so much time in making a photo album of pictures from when she was a tiny baby.  This was such a special gift for her to have and for us!  It seems that they took very good care of her.  She seems overall healthy, and she smiles easily.  She even knew the sign for I love you...precious!  They celebrated her first and second birthdays with birthday cakes and party hats, and they celebrated Christmas too!

We are just so in love with this little girl already.  God has had His hand on her for the last 2 years of her life. On her schedule we were given, they told us that every night is "prayer and praise" time before bed, and her album has the verse Psalms 68:5-6 "A father to the fatherless, a defender of the widows, is God in His holy dwelling.  God sets the lonely in families..."  We are so blessed. She really is precious-this beautiful chiild of God.  I know the work is not over, and I am sure there will be difficult times and adjustments.  But I know that God will give us the grace to get through it.  She was given to our family for a reason. 

Believe it or not, she laid down next to me last night at 8:45, and she is still sleeping (it is 6:00am).  Nate and I are sitting here, anxiously waiting for her to wake up.:-)  I would love to post some pictures, but right now the internet is running slow!  So I will try to have pictures up, later today (tomorrow morning for you).  Keep the prayers coming!

Beijing

It's evening in Beijing right now...I am looking out the 18th floor window to this crazy and very dirty city.  There is a lot of things about Beijing that I am not fond of, but I do love experiencing my daughters culture and the people are wonderful.  We were blocked from our blog and facebook, but figured out a way to by- pass security by logging onto a computer in the U.S.  Yesterday was our first full day here, and we were able to see the Great Wall.  It was absolutely breath-taking...

After climbing the wall, there was several vendors, and I found this cool hand-painted bottle.  It is actually painted on the inside of the bottle, and they put Hayley's name in English and Manderin.  I love it!  And Aidan and Cameron - I got you both something too, but I am not posting a picture of that! :-) You will have to wait till I get home.

 

This afternoon we had orientation, and they had updated pictures for us!  Yay!  Tomorrow we fly to Xian, Shaanxi, and we will then, meet our little girl!  It's finally here!  I am hoping to post by Sunday with pics/video of her.  Thank you all for your prayers and support!

Here we go!

Sometimes the wait seemed so long over the last year, especially when I saw her very first picture.  It felt like it was going to be the longest 4-6 months of my life.  Even though some of the days were longer than others, I can't believe I am sitting here.  Bags are packed, and I am so ready to meet my daughter!  I must say for the first time, I feel nervous.  Mostly nervous about how she is going to react to us.  I am praying that she bonds and attaches to us both quickly, but I also know that it is sometimes not the case.  So those of you that have kept our family in your prayers, please pray that God is preparing her heart.

I will miss my boys terribly!  I will definitely be holding back tears when I say goodbye on Wednesday morning.  Leaving them for 2 weeks is not my first choice, but the best one for our family right now.  They will start school while we are gone.  Today they found out who their teachers will be, so I was glad to know that before I left.  I love you my sweet boys!

We leave on Wednesday, and on Sunday we will meet our little girl.  For those of you on the east coast, we will meet Hayley while you are sleeping (Saturday night into Sunday).  I hope to post something that night when she (hopefully) falls asleep...ha! :-)

God has been so good!  I know I have said that over and over in my posts, and I will continue to say it always.  He has blown me away with this whole adoption journey.  Financially He has blessed us with what we need, when we needed it.  Emotionally and Spiritually, I have grown so much.  I am starting to see that when we follow His will, and we are doing something to futher His Kingdom, He will bless that.

We will be in four different cities, while we are in China.   I am sure the trip will be exhausting, but also so exciting to see the culture and experience the country that our daughter is from.   I hear that driving over there is an experience, and that the Chinese food there is nothing like the Chinese food here.  I am very excited see what "squeak" shoes are all about, and plan on getting Hayley a pair.  I am most certainly not looking forward to the "bathrooms"  that are just a hole in the ground (hmmmm...), or the intense heat that we were told to expect. But we are really looking forward to seeing the Great Wall, and we are hoping to toboggan down.   I never knew you could do that!

So I thought I would post a few pictures of her room here, and the next time I post we will be in China!!! Yay! 

Travel Approval!!!!!!!!!!!

Woohoo!  I am beyond excited!  We get to meet our daughter for the first time in a little over 2 weeks!  I know the next two weeks are going to be crazy, but a good kind of crazy.  I am full of so many emotions right now.  Just knowing that I will get to meet our little Hayley so soon...wow...my eyes are filled with tears just thinking about it.  The other part of me is a little sad to say goodbye to my boys for 2 1/2 weeks, and miss their first day of school.  I am so thankful to have such an amazing family here that I know will take care of them, like I would!

Thank you to all of our family and friends that have been so supportive of our adoption.  There is so many of you that are now a part of bringing this little girl home through prayer and financial support.  We are so thankful for that.  God has blown me away over the last year.  We knew that he was calling us to adopt, but did not see any humanly possible way that could happen.  He has blessed us over and over in ways that no one could ever explain.  Someday soon, I plan to put the whole story here! 

Please check in while we are in China, as I plan to post pictures and video of our adventure!  At this point, we are scheduled to leave on August 16th, and that will be confirmed early this week coming. 

Here we come Hayley Grace!!!!

Trying to be patient!

We are getting closer!  We should have a travel date in the next 2-3 weeks, and then leave approximately two weeks later.  I am so ready!  I must check my phone and email a hunderd times a day.  It looks like Nate and I will most likely miss school starting.  That was definitely a struggle for me because Cameron is starting Kindergarten.  I am not too excited about missing that milestone for him, but I know God's timing is perfect.  We will set up skype, so I can at least talk to them that morning.  On the other hand, if we leave any later, we may miss his birthday.  He was not thrilled about that option, so if they give us the option, we will choose to miss the first day of school. 

Hayley's room is all ready!  It is so girly!!!  Something that I am really not used to with this house full of boys.  I have definitely been out-numbered here for a while!  So I am ready to have another girl in this house! 

For those of you that have been praying for our family, thank you!  Please continue to pray for a quick TA(Travel Approval), and that God would prepare Hayley's heart for the difficult transition that she is about to face.  Poor thing is going to go through so much in such a short period of time.  Pray that she adjusts and bonds to us quickly. 

Next time you hear from me, I plan to announce our travel date! Thank you to those that have been followng along.  We plan to blog from China, and hopefully post pictures and videos, as well.   Hope to have a reason to be back on here really soon! 

Here is another picture for you...:)

Update!!!

Today we received an update on our little Hayley Grace!  They say she is doing well, and her speech has improved a little since our last update in April.  You have no idea how badly I want to get on a plane and bring my baby home! 

LOA!!!

Yesterday, we received our LOA(Letter Of Acceptance) from China!  This is the paper we have been waiting for.  It basically says that they have officially been approved as Hayley's parents!  We needed this paper in order to get our Travel Approval.  There is a few steps of paper work in between now and then, but I will not bore you with all of that! :-)  At this point, my agency feels we will travel before the end of August. 

Our case worker agreed to request another update for us, so I am hopeful that by the end of next week, we will have new pictures!  I finally see an end in sight, and am beyond anxious to meet my daughter!  Even if she does scream at me!  :-)

God has been so good, and provided everything we have needed throughout this process.  As some of you may know, adoption is expensive.  Through fundraisers and some very generous souls, we have raised about $18,000, so far.   At this point, the remainder of the money that we need to raise, is for our travel expenses.  I have just been in awe!  We have the money exactly when we need it, and sometimes down to the penny!  There is no doubt that God wants Hayley Grace here!

My Boys

The boys wanted to have a picture of Hayley for their rooms...:-)

A Letter from your Mommy

It’s been a while.  Things have been crazy and hectic, so I have not been able to update as often as I would have liked.  So here we go…  It has already been a month.  Like I said, things have been busy, so that does make the time go so much faster.  Although there is never a minute that she is not on my mind.  What I would not give to leave tomorrow and bring her home!!! 

At this point, our agency feels we will be traveling by the end of the summer. We will probably be leaving in July or August.  Sometimes July feels right around the corner, and other times it feels like a lifetime away.  We will be in China for approximately 2 weeks, and Aidan and Cameron will be staying here with their grandparents.  This was a difficult decision, but we feel this is best.  The trip can be very exhausting and emotional.  There are several steps of paper work that we need to wait on before we get our TA (travel approval).  I will not bore you all with every little step, but for those of you that have been though this process or are currently going through it, we are now waiting of our LOA (Letter of Approval) from China.  

This past week, I was very excited to receive an email with new pictures of our Hayley!  That definitely made my week. :-)  The boys ask almost every day when we are going to go get their sister.  They are so excited to meet her.  It is really sweet to watch them.  They are so interested in anything Chinese that they see.  I think it makes them feel some connection to her.  They are very proud big brothers already!  

There was two reason that I decided to start this blog.  The first was to keep everyone up-to-date with all that is going on throughout this process.  The second is to have all of this documented for Hayley, as her story that she can tell someday.  Then hardest part of the waiting is that I can't hug her right now, or pick her up when she falls down and gets hurt.  I can't hold her when she is sick, or rock her to sleep.  So here is a letter to Hayley from her Mommy, telling her how much I love her.  This is so someday she can look back at this, and know what I was thinking.

My Sweet Hayley Grace,

There is not a minute that goes by that I am not thinking about you.  I wish that I could pick you up, and love you!  You are a beautiful little girl, who is already lighting up the faces of your family here that loves you.  We love looking at your pictures.  My favorite is the one where you are smiling and clapping.  You look so happy!

We are working on your room, so it will be all ready for you when you come home.  Your big brothers are soooo excited to meet you.  They ask almost everyday when you will be able to come home.  They love you and are so proud of you already. 

I cannot wait to know more about you...what makes you smile, what makes you laugh, what you like to eat, what you like to do.  I know that when you come home, it may not be easy for any of us at first.  Everything will be new and a little scary, but know this....We love you, we are your family, and we will never leave you. 

I can't wait till the day I get to hold you for the first time...I am longing for that day.   I am praying that day comes quickly, and you can be home with us forever. 

I love you!
Mommy

Grace

I have this little flip calendar that sits on my counter.  I am not always the best about flipping it each morning, but I decided to today.  It is about grace.  Fitting since Hayley's middle name is Grace.  This is what it said:

"Grace is what someone gives us out of the goodness of his heart, not out of the perfection of ours.  The story of grace is the good news that says that when we come, He gives.  Grace is something you did not expect.  It is something you certainly could never earn.  But grace is something you'd never turn down."

This pretty much sums up many of my thoughts on this precious girl that God has given us.  I was only given her by His grace.  I came to Him and asked for the desire of my heart, to adopt a baby from China, and He gave that to me.  I didn't expect for everything to go, as smoothly and quickly as it did.  I could never have done anything to deserve or earn the ability to care for this little girl, but God sees fit to trust her with us.  And when it says "grace is something you'd never turn down", this made me smile becuase on our paper we requested a child 0-14 months.  I didn't know what age to put down, and really battled with that.  And Nate said "Don't worry about it.  Just put down an age, and God will take care of it".  He was right.  God took care of it.  She was older than we expected, but perfect for us. 

One Less

I am sitting here, staring at a blank screen, and don't know where to start.  So many things running through me head.  I feel blessed most of all.  I feel excited, and excited is an understatement.  I am amazed that God has decided to bless us with a sweet, beautiful little girl.  That's right....we have a match!!!!!  And I can't stop staring at her adorable face.  I am aching to pick her up and hug her.  I already love her, my sweet little Hayley Grace. 

So a little about Hayley...

She just turned two last friday, so her birthday is March 18th.  They say she is energetic, active and smiles a lot.  Sounds like I need to get my energy up before this little one comes home. :-)  And she is absolutely beautiful.

Thank you God for this precious little girl.  Thank You for trusting us to take care of her.  There is now one less little girl in this world without a family to love her.  We are so blessed!


Introducing Hayley Grace LeSuer....

Waiting...

So yesterday, I received a call from my agency saying that we are officially "logged-in" to China!  Yay!  It's hard to believe we are finally at this point!  It's hard to describe all the emotions that I am feeling.  I'm excited... anxious...nervous...

Now, we wait.  We may wait a week, a month, or possibly longer.  For the last five months, we have been waiting on the paper work.  Now, we wait for a picture of our sweet baby.  A much more exciting wait, I must say!  I wonder what she will look like, or how old she will be.  I wonder what her personality is like.  I wonder, if she is being held and loved, or if she is alone and scared...These are just some of the thoughts that go through the mind of  a mom waiting for her baby that is half way around the world.  These are the thoughts that make me so thankful that I know our God has her life in His hands.  He is watching over her, protecting her, and loving her.  Even though I am here and she is there. 

    

Hold it together

"You hold everything together by the word of Your immovable power."  As I sit here writing this blog and listening to music, those are the words I hear.  It is so comforting to know that everything happening now and over the next few months with our adoption of our precious baby girl, is in His complete control.  I don't need to hold it together because He will! 

Yesterday was an exciting day for us.  Our paper work is now officially off to China.  We had a slight delay last week, but things are now moving forward!  We are praying and hoping to be logged-in over the next week or two.  Once that happens we wait for our match! 

It is all suddenly becoming much more of a reality.  Do I have concerns or worries?  Of course, but I love that I don't have to hang onto them.  I can hand them over to the One that will "hold everything together".  But much more than my worries and concerns is my complete overwhelming excitement to know who this little angel, that we are about to be so blessed with, is!!!

One Step Closer

So the paperwork came back from the consulate a day early!!!!  I was able to ship our dossier (our life on paper) out to our agency which means, potentially we could be logged into China in 2 weeks! This means they can match us with our daughter.  So it was an exciting day, but a little nerve-racking.  Sending all of these documents that we have spent months working on, and praying they get there safetly.  That's when I feel so blessed to say that God is in control, and He loves her more than any human possibly could.  And His timing is perfect!  It's all in His hands, which takes away my worries...

Paperwork

To say that there is a lot of paperwork with an adoption, is an understatement. The amount of paper work can be overwhelming at times, but yesterday, we reached a huge milestone!  We went to Harrisburg to have all of our adoption documents state certified.  Then, I shipped them to the NYC Chinese Consulate, where they will be authenticated.  I know....blah, blah, blah, but this is VERY exciting for us.  All of these documents are what I have been gathering and working on, since September.  This is the last step before we can send everything to our agency.  This is the last step before we can be matched with our baby.  So yes, this is very exciting! 

The agency tells us, that they will match us in 1-3 months.  Which means we will know who she is, a little about her, and what she looks like.  I can't wait!  I can't wait to see her little face!  I can't wait to see who God has for us... 

Let the journey begin...

Never thought I would start a blog.  Never wanted to start a blog...but now I have a reason. 

This is our journey.  Our journey to bring our sweet baby girl home.  I have never met her, but will do anything to bring her home.  I have no idea what she looks like, but love her already.  I have no idea what the next year of our life will hold, but I am completely okay with that.  

We started this journey in September 2010, and God has been so faithful!  He amazes me everyday.  His will for us to bring Hayley home has been so clear.  

I am excited to share in this journey with all of you!